Koi by Regina Leffers
Written July 4, 2013
With this gorgeous painting and poignant writing, Regina Leffers shares how she has worked through the difficulties of change using her creativity.
“For 36 years now, I have used the practice of painting to help myself move through change. Some of that change has felt uncomfortable to me. Other change has felt sweet and easy for me, but uncomfortable for others. Usually, it isn’t that clear though. Life presents challenges with change that evoke feelings of distress for all of us, and it doesn’t seem to depend upon the outcome. When I use my creativity with intention as I paint, the change gets incorporated into my life more easily and distress evaporates.
This painting, entitled “KOI” is an example of that work. My intention with this process was to figure out how all of the different things that I love to do could fit together into my life. I felt fragmented, as though each thing was an isolated and separate expression. I couldn’t see how anything fit together into the larger, whole expression of the person, me! I started without a preconceived idea of the finished painting. Each time I painted, I worked on painting a flower that represented an individual aspect of life that I loved. One flower represents the action of painting itself, another represents teaching, others represent my work at the time, dancing, yoga, being mom, and so on. At some point in the process of painting all the “pieces” of my life, the gold border got painted in, and that represents the edges of my life in this body, from birth to death. After that, the ground of life, the larger Spirit and/or Soul that supports everything that is me, got painted in the form of the green water. Then I found myself painting the Koi, the part of larger Spirit that weaves all of these expressions together into being the Creative Experience that lives this life as Regina.
This painting has given me much peace.”